The Regret

Standing alone in a blank and empty space,

With my shadow and faded but strong 

Memories to accompany me, I wonder

Thoughts moving back and forth in my mind,

Reliving every experience gone by,

Flashes of misunderstood moments haunting me!

Events at broad daylight yet never allowed me,

To hear what was not said, to see through friends who were really not,

Enemies and hatred only a reflection of my own self.

Every love not got was every love 

Not given elsewhere

Every sorry not felt was every sorry not said elsewhere 

Every love given erased by doubt and hatred elsewhere 

Every silence of a loved one - not because she or he failed to listen,

But because I failed to listen to the unsaid.

What I earned was for the power 

To spend on Something I never spent.

Victories teasing me to forget my flaws,

Failures urging me to throw away all that is good!

But alas I never realised - victories and failures were all but my own mind!

Pendulam of time changes everything

Upside down - no consistent being , no forever position.

Smile only a facade, a facade not even

Known to the beholder.

Happiness but an eternal dream

Blind I was in pure light,

Darkness allowed me to see

In ways not imagined,

No blemish, only pure self,

Darkness gives the true value 

Of light !

If only I could move backwards,

Swim in the ocean of darkness,

Find meaning in the unsaid,

Find light in the unseen,

Trust in those that matter,

Over those that glitter.

Hug my misguided and misunderstood self

If only, if at all!

But realised I did,

Regrets of past can never be altered,

But can only be erased with 

The hope of the future,

The things I choose now 

To see and hear, to believe 

To trust, to stand by.

For, the regrets of the past,

Are the seeds for the present 

For the fruits of the future!

For the only way to handle life,

Is but to live through it.

Without regrets !