Standing alone in a blank and empty space,
With my shadow and faded but strong
Memories to accompany me, I wonder
Thoughts moving back and forth in my mind,
Reliving every experience gone by,
Flashes of misunderstood moments haunting me!
Events at broad daylight yet never allowed me,
To hear what was not said, to see through friends who were really not,
Enemies and hatred only a reflection of my own self.
Every love not got was every love
Not given elsewhere
Every sorry not felt was every sorry not said elsewhere
Every love given erased by doubt and hatred elsewhere
Every silence of a loved one - not because she or he failed to listen,
But because I failed to listen to the unsaid.
What I earned was for the power
To spend on Something I never spent.
Victories teasing me to forget my flaws,
Failures urging me to throw away all that is good!
But alas I never realised - victories and failures were all but my own mind!
Pendulam of time changes everything
Upside down - no consistent being , no forever position.
Smile only a facade, a facade not even
Known to the beholder.
Happiness but an eternal dream
Blind I was in pure light,
Darkness allowed me to see
In ways not imagined,
No blemish, only pure self,
Darkness gives the true value
Of light !
If only I could move backwards,
Swim in the ocean of darkness,
Find meaning in the unsaid,
Find light in the unseen,
Trust in those that matter,
Over those that glitter.
Hug my misguided and misunderstood self
If only, if at all!
But realised I did,
Regrets of past can never be altered,
But can only be erased with
The hope of the future,
The things I choose now
To see and hear, to believe
To trust, to stand by.
For, the regrets of the past,
Are the seeds for the present
For the fruits of the future!
For the only way to handle life,
Is but to live through it.
Without regrets !
